Hi Missy, yeah I feel the same. Each time I come back I'm horrified how close I was to the devastation. If alcohol poisoning doesn't get you, multiple other things can. There's no point pretending otherwise, sounds like lots of us have used up 8 of our 9 lives. I think I have to incorporate that thinking into my everyday rationalising. And we are lucky in some ways we weren't born into war or utter poverty, there are things worth living for, and the price of drinking is just ridiculous.