Jesus.. They're not your mates if they don't support you when your world fell apart. Reach out, god dammit do not isolate yourself right now. Now is the time for hugs, cuddles and that loving look from a friend who's so relieved you got away from that pissant. You'll find out very soon who is actually a friend. But you may find some mates drift away. Sometimes it's too close to the bone. Sometimes they're not ready to deal with your issues cos they're still denying theirs.
I've got closer to strangers and lost some of my dearest. You change when you say no more to something. You start to expect better. You'll find new friendships now perfectly aligned with you getting better.
And you have us. And we've all been through it. You're not alone my love. You'll get through this.
{Virtual hugs, hot chocolate, cookies, ice cream, spa, massage, manicure, walk in the forest, laughing so hard you wet yourself.**