welcome back SurvivorK
and my husband suspected this last time. I completely lied, I can't tell him, it will devastate him. It will end us.
every relationship is different I know but if I was found to have lied barefaced and was drinking again that would devastate my partner too.
I'm not telling you what to do but I hope you'll think about this...secrets can really weigh you down...
maybe in a few weeks it will be easier for you to open up.
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