I think, like Lucinda said, if you are going to work the program, just do it. Don't project ahead, have 'magical' expectations, judgments etc. Just DO. Do the steps in order, with your sponsor. Go to meetings, don't drink in between them.
See what happens. Honest Open Willing, right? Overthinking stuff never gets me anywhere.
Maybe that heavy coat will become a jacket, then a cardigan, then a long sleeve shirt, then a tshirt. Ya know? And the 'me' you want to shed, might become a 'me' you can wear with more contentment.