I'm echoing what BetterMan said about it indeed NOT being about "magic."
Indeed, it IS about a spiritual awakening, which is NOT about God.
Aside from obvious ways,
I didn't "get" how I was afraid in the deeper senses of the word.
I didn't "get" how I was so selfish.
I didn't "get"....
Til I worked thru the steps and more importantly, began living them. That took me time. And guidance from not just a sponsor but people in meetings who had what I always talk about - "what I want." That keeps going.
As also mentioned above, whether anyone is "an AA person," an understanding of this road map for living is something I believe anyone would benefit from understanding. Indeed, the word "alcohol" is mentioned only ONCE, for good reason.
Step one, Acceptance, truly applies in endless ways far beyond drinking.
Keep going Press. Questioning and exploring as you find your best sober life are good things.