Maybe try not to analyse it too much Press. Go to meetings, sit in rooms, be close to others, do what your sponsor says and see what happens? I like what you said about throwing off the big heavy ‘me’ coat. That is one of my goals for this year too. I notice that I have become increasingly self obsessed over the last few years. It’s not a nice place to be huh? It sounds like AA has already given you some hope that this can be different. 😊