Sounds like you've been around the block a few times, so let's get down to the brass tacks:
How many meetings do you go to? Thirty meetings in 30 days? Sixty meetings in 60 days? Ninety meetings in 90 days?
Do you put yourself at the service of others? Do you get up and re-fill everbody's coffee cup during the meeting? Take the de-caffeinated in one hand, the regular in the other. Do you help clean-up? Set-up?
You listen, but do you listen for someone who seems to have her act together, then strike up a conversation with her after the meeting?
Hope and inspiration sooner or later must come down to service to others and actions. These are small very do-able things that will pay big dividends.