Originally Posted by
Pressmetilihurt 
I can't remember the last time I was happy. I feel alone and untethered.
Hey,
I had a very open conversation with my mother earlier and basically said exactly the same thing as you. I'd thought it before but didn't really understand the significance of it until those words came out my mouth.
I know it's difficult but try and be as social as you can, even if that's only online. Try to be in contact with people as much as you can stand. If you're anything like me that will be really difficult but it helps immensely.
There's no easy fix for the way you're feeling but there are things you can do to feel better. Stay in contact. Try and have a proper think about what you enjoy doing. Once you've figured that out see if you can take a night class or a taster session where theres no pressure but you get to meet people with the same interests.
From the bottom of my heart I wish you the best of luck with finding yourself. The feelings will pass. It may not feel like they will but they will go. Maybe not completely at first, but enough to give you some breathing space.
Natom.