Welcome, Harry. AUD is causing issues in your life, and it's good that you realize this and are looking to stop drinking for good. I will tell you that drinking to excess is never a good thing, and for your physical and mental health it's time to give it a rest; it is possible to keep drinking for a number of years and be able to handle it--until you suddenly can't. I never thought I would ever be the kind of drinker who had hallucinations and had to go to detox and rehab-until I did. I'm not trying to be dramatic, but alcohol can take you to some of the lowest places imaginable, and you don't have to be a daily drinker to get there--you can salvage your marriage with a commitment to not drink; best to quit now. I've been sober for nearly 4 years and I never want to go back. I am very glad that you found us and I hope you continue to post and read the wisdom to be had on these pages.