Hello Sobertoday54,
Welcome to day 1 !!! It is an incredibly brave step, to admit that drinking is a problem in our life is terrifying and a huge relief and a whole bunch of other emotions rolled into one big lump. Good new is, that lump gets smaller every sober day and a new wonderful feeling of freedom takes its place!
I am glad you are here. Cathy
PS, Maybe you might like the "occasionally we like to count our sober days" thread, lots of encouragement!