I too struggled thru my first year at one time....I read you said it helps you sleep...it helps you get to sleep..but if you read on the internet...it really is not good for your overall sleep.
It sounds like you feel a lot of pressure coming from somewhere....or just pure anxiety...I wonder if you see a psychiatriast for the anxiety? Possibly they would have something to take this edge off....and get you some sleep and possibly keep your sobriety.