Laur…..of course it is heartbreaking! You will probably do some grieving....depending on how much or little "pre-grieving" you have already done....
I call it the "short-term pain for the long-term gain"...…
I think it is so important to gather your support persons close to you, because human support is so important at this time, I think....
Do you have any plans in place....lawyer? therapist?
It is so good that you already go to alanon…
Here is a link that you might find helpful....it is listed by stste….
www.womansdivorce.com