Welcome Iroha,
We all have to start at the same place - putting down the drink and not picking it up again. Glad you've joined us.
I'm really not one for AA, I really don't think I could do it, I can't even speak to my family and partner about personal issues, never mind a roomful of strangers.
Oh man, that was so me three years ago. Funny thing though, that roomful of strangers became a roomful of friends. But there are other ways over the mountain, you just need to find one that works for you and stick with it. The drinking will never get better, the sobriety gets better every day.
One Love, One Heart,
Tony