fwn…...I know it seems so maddening, doesn't it? It seems so logical to the onlooker or the non-alcoholic....
Of course, we know that it has nothing to do with the intelligence....most of the physiology of it is masterminded by the midbrain...where the reward centers re located....not in the thinking frontal lobes.....!
Be very thankful that you have been willing to educate yourself, and reach out for support......because it will help you to know how and why to protect yourself and your children.....
You are blessed in that way....