Hi all my Eddie Lee. March 23 1992 we met at my work for lunch. this great looking guy in black leather sweating like it was 102 outside. the building held its breath.. April 23 1992 I walked into his flat it was hot and cold running women drugs and teenagers. I laid into him solid. that was it. have a life.. he had to go to the bus to follow me home. I went to a friends house with broken heart and hippup tears. called my kids and said this is what happened..now my kids were Ivan 22 5 foot 9 inches tall Moose 21 6 foot 8 inches tall and my Melanie 20 and over 5 foot 7inches and a real Mother of a Mother... Eddie lee showed up in the snow dark out and after 9pm ,,, they let him sit in the snow on the front porch. let him in at 1 am. and all laid into him hard. what the H do you think your are doing dummy. Where's your Mom. not here. they let him stay till the bus was going to come at 6:30am... he showed up at the building on Monday flowers down on one knee and the place went silent. promised to never do any of that again..
yep kids he quit and never touched any of it again. it was bliss.. we had a great life .. then in 2006 Dec he had an accident at Work. neck shoulder and back had to have surgery April 2007 neck August 207 shoulder.. Oct 2008 back.. I was the only provider in the house. work care for him work worry about how to feed us work and doctors and hospitals. and then they gave him Morphine tables 2 a day . life went to hell fast. I was afraid for my life. had friends that would hide me over the weekend until he cooled off or realized his meal ticket was running off.. took until Nov of 2011 for the workmens comp case to start to give us something back.. and the morphine and the drugs for pain had him solid....
140,000.00 went thro his fingers in less then 2 years.. zip I gotta have you never let me do anything I want and pop went the temper..
Nov 2014 they had tried to work down the amount of morphine they were giving him. the last two weeks of that month were hell.. I was watching and additic that was loosing his fix. and then on the phone with Emerency unit of hospital I heard him fall. call the EMT's now get them here now..
they restarted his heart .. in hospital for 11 days. did not know who he was who I was or where he was. I have video of those days .
Sept 2016 my Daughter has bought a bungalow to have me safe and Eddie lee forever... I call home to say Hi Babe what you doing. and this babble happens I fly out the door. he has fallen off a 6 foot ladder .. emts come and hospital for a week.
March 2018 something is just not right lots of head aches pain in arm and hands and his temper again is out of control.. I feel safer at work then anywhere..
Nov 2018 we are having a good evening volunteering with the folk fair. but there is something just so wrong.. by that Sunday before Thanksgiving I have him back in hospital Doc take one look and says you have had a stroke... first thing they do is IV with morphine..... I am in tears.. 5 days in hospital. day before Thanks giving bring my Eddie Lee home..
April 3 2019 he is screaming at me at 3am he has to drive I know if he pops we will both die.. drops me at work 6:15am I look into the car at a face that I have given 26 years of my life to to keep him alive.. and know this might be the last time I see him alive. Babe What he scrams.. I love you Babe.. and he stops .. but the black lay of cloud is all around him. be safe going home Babe I love you.. ya ya ya . and he roars off.. kids I love my Eddie lee more then life.. knew at noon that something was wrong but his cell phone had sounds.. had to be a wrong number dial again. sounds of a hospital ER.. hang up.. third time lady This is Mr. Richters phone who is this. I knew just had to confirm is this hospital ER,,, my pal Mikey came roaring out to grab me. in ER in 45 minutes after call.. April 4 10 am our family Doc we just can't find anything wrong He is going to F---ing Die what do I do then. blood test Friday april 5 10 am they take him from the special room for tests. 3pm tiny little Doc pulls me down to his size. if I say Widowmaker to you how upset will you be. all of my clown my security guard and my Pop on my shoulder held me tight.. is he still alive. we have to do emergency surgery as soon as we can.. ICU Sat morning they had him doped proper. Sunday 7am going down the hall he knew I was there. hug me Toots I love you I love you too. Dummy Screw this up and I wil find you and kick your sorry ass. he is laughing we kiss RN looks at me .. and pats me softly..
long story kids but now 5 months later.. my adittic now has 19 pills he has to take daily some 2 times in a day.. he hates it. tried not doing a couple just once.. and his Heart screamed at him big time.. everything he puts in him is watched everything he eats is measured everything he drinks is noted. why .. because I have his cremation urin in the living room no kidding as a reminder that is his next rooming area without me or pills or sun or books.(well maybe I 'll burn a book and put some ash with him)(not joking)
but yesterday his laughter was back he patted me on the butt. he gets up with me at 3am and sits while I have coffee. and tries to find a funny movie for us to watch as we have dinner that I made after work fresh.. maybe I will not have my Eddie lee for long but I do have him again for awhile...
.. there are people that scream no one helped Elvis and his problems with drugs and life. but know what I know how Cilla felt when she was afraid for her life... no weapons in my house but a big male animal that is out of control and has forgotten why he loved the female. her life means nothing to him.. at all.. so the hard part is .. and this is only if no children are in the mix.. what are you willing to give up ... to stop your addittic from killing you or themselves.. or the bottom line ... how much are you willing to watch them die in a slow and type of death you know is coming you just can't do anything about it.. medically I am a Mother of a Mother. and this is the last male I will have in my life. I miss my Eddie Lee from 1992 so very much. have some photos taken of us by very close friends that saw the best of us together. love you all so much for holding me tight over all these years. ardy...