Originally Posted by
Dazedandconfus 
he says I want him dead. I’ve done all I can to save his life!
Of course you have. But you aren't willing to let him stay and put up with his drunken abuse any longer.
So he is saying that to hurt you and still try for the guilt manipulation to get to stay. See it for what it is and not at all as a real thing.
Get away from this. It's hurting you.