Dazed.....I trust that you are talking to your therapist about your feelings.....about whether it is the expected sadness of grieving or depression...or, a combination of both...…
Depression can be treated......grieving can be managed...though, it is still painful and cannot be avoided....no way around it---just straight through it...
Face to face support from live persons is very therapeutic.....Now, I know how valuable the fabulous people on this forum are to you....but, you still need the human interaction of people who understand and are willing to walk, hand in hand, with you.....
In fact, the powerful human connection, from those who understand and do not judge, is one of the main factors in AA---the way I see it....
Same with any support group....it is about human connection....we are wired for it and we NEED it.....
I'm just saying...…(over and over...lol)….