Originally Posted by tomsteve

these words sum up how i felt the day after my last drunk:
No words can tell of the loneliness and despair I found in that bitter morass of self-pity. Quicksand stretched around me in all directions. I had met my match. I had been overwhelmed. Alcohol was my master.

i couldnt have hated myself more than i did that day.i wouldnt have changed if i used my own thinking to change. that thinking got me drunk- i needed the thinking of people who had been where i was to help me learn how to change myself and be free from the bonage of alcohol.
i got into AA and worked the program. not only have i been sober since, but i have a life i never could have dreamed of- a life free from remorse,guilt, and regret.