Originally Posted by
Strugglingto 
I let this forum lapse because I thought I was doing well. I don't even know what triggered me. I can't remember the reason. I just have numerous empty vodka bottles and feel horrendously sick
Because you’re an alcoholic. I didn’t/don’t need a trigger to drink as that’d be my default position without being full-up with spiritual fitness from working and living a recovery program for alcoholism.
Sure I could list you tons of triggers (excuses) why I drank but truthfully I didn’t really know why I drank. Ultimately though I accepted and accept that I’d always drink as I’m an alcoholic. Through working my recovery program however there is no compulsion for alcohol and it plays no part in my life.
Recovery from alcoholism is a daily way of life. There is never a point when you’ve made it; remaining teachable is key in my experience.