Wondering what is keeping you "stuck" or if you know what is keeping you stuck? You keep stopping various substances..but then messing with "different" ones.
I think what you are searching for is to be content in your own skin without a substance..and that of course means taking a leap and being totally sober.
If you are not at "dangerous" or "high" levels of any drug....than I would..if I were you make a date where I would say goodbye to all of it....Up until the time the "date" was upon me...I would tell myself daily....I have had enough in my lifetime...Its time for me to live life...instead of run from it...continue to tell yourself that you can conquer addiction....
Because what you are really craving is sobriety...Being sober is such a "different high" in itself....A much more enjoyable high.