Hey Jenlou and Buddy
You're gonna find plenty of friends here that you can tell anything to. We all understand and have had to hear and see similar things.
Buddy, there is no answer as to where bottom is for your husband or anyone else's for that matter. I wish we had a crystal ball that could let us know, but we know we don't. It is so hard to watch them destroy themselves and see how they suffer, but you can get help with al-anon and here to help you be stronger and healthier!
Y'all keep posting!
Constant