Originally Posted by
fionamccarthy 
Whats most important, we did manage to be ok with each other for quite some time after the breakup, but now I am loosing it hehe
Chances are during your relationship you probably had little time or emotional capacity to really see all that was going on. You were probably so busy with the drama created by alcoholism and putting out fires and etc etc that it's only now that you truly get to reflect and say - hang on a minute, wth was that!!
That is naturally going to lead to resentment and anger. And why wouldn't you be angry? You feel like you have been led down the garden path.
Continuing to talk to him is really putting you in a bad spot emotionally it seems. Who needs to be talking to someone like that who still has the power to hurt you so much? Why are you letting this person have access to your feelings?
You need to protect yourself.