Hello and welcome.
I know the feelings you're going through all too well.
I was either drunk, hungover or craving alcohol.
I lived like that for thirty years.
Good job on ten days. What did you do to stay sober? Can you do it again?
I know how hard it is. It took me ten years of trying and failing to finally stop drinking.
You've found a great place for support, so stick around. Check out the Newcomers forum. Lots of help there.
Best to you, and you CAN stop drinking.