After years of trying to change the ways of my alcoholic mother and recovering dad I've come to terms with my inability to do so. As an adult daughter Al Anon has taught me how to detach with love, I am so grateful for all that I have learned. I find myself trying to fill this new void, what once consumed my every thought and decision no longer plays such a role in my life. I see what years of self-neglect have done to my self-esteem. My life was caring for them at my own expense. It's a new chapter and a scary one- while I look back at how much I hated what my life had become I now have to focus on myself and I don't know how. Detaching has taken such a weight off my shoulders but has also made me realize how much I lost myself in the process. Being in that cycle was a routine-one that I'm grateful to have given up. A new beginning...