We are always growing and changing inside
and out of ourselves before, during and after
our addiction.
Having a program of recovery as a guideline
to follow to help us remain sober can help
us achieve many wonderful fulfilling gifts
in life to enjoy and be grateful for.
Also, incorporating help from our doctors
for mental, emotional, physcological problems
is also there to help us achieve a healthier
mind and body as we go thru those changes
in life.
Can I remain sober if I hate myself? Well....hate
is definitely a strong word to use or say and have
to remind myself that from time to time mainly
because, I used it just this morning as I was sharing
with my husband.
We had treated ourselves to pizza over the
weekend, which I know darn good and well
how unhealthy it is for my own well being.
I can honestly share that yes I do love many
of those unhealthy foods pretty much all my
life yet they are not good for me. A lesson I
continue to learn every single day as I remain
sober for the past 28 yrs.
Yes, I have remain sober for a many one days
at a time and have gone thru many changes
and haven't found it necessary to pick up a
drink of poison to numb or kill myself over it.
Sure, I have good days and down days and
on a daily bases have to maintain my sobriety
and life on continuous bases incorporating
many resourceful recovery and life tools to help me
stay the course as well as stay healthy and sober.
Yep, after eating that pizza, I knew I had gained
some unwanted weight and yes it made me look
at myself with disgust. But not so much that I
need to do harm or get drunk over it.
I do have that guideline in recovery to help
me work thru daily situations that can get
my feathers ruffled and need to vent over
them and get back on track.
When I eat healthy everyday and add some
exercise with it for a long period of time, then
I see positive results and definitely love myself
for it. But when I choose to eat food I know are
not good for me, I have to be ready for what
the results will be on me.
We are all human and yes we all make mistakes
or make unhealthy choices in our lives. Learn
from those choices and the consequences that
follow help us learn from them and seek out
better ways to avoid them if we dont like those
negative results.
One day of pizza and ice cream set me back
a few days but im right back on track eating
healthy and im still sober and in a better frame
of mind because of it.
