Yeah. I just feel like I got myself into something I wish I hadnít. I think when I was talking to the couple, I WISHED I could be that girl that could pop over for a glass of wine and sit by the pool on their patio. So I sort of pretended I was. It was just easier. I feel like it would be easier to be that girl, it was also easier to lie and pretend to be that girl. Now I wish I could turn back time and say donít drink from the get go.