Originally Posted by
braebear 
Hi, I'm new. Not new to drinking. 14 years in. It started the day my Mother died. Now, here I am, pooping blood and drink beer every single day. My husband can't stand me, nor do my kids. When do you get to the point of being done, what makes it possible? I wake up every morning saying "today is THE day", but an hour later, I'm buying beer. I'm lost and done...
I think it's up to you to decide when you are done. I remember saying day after day during my hangovers at work, that I wasn't going to drink again, but after work, all was forgotten and I'd be back at it. I knew I was headed down the wrong path, and eventually it got so bad it frightened me. Whatever is required to actually quit, I wish I could just hand it to you, but I can't. It's up to you, but support and actual knowledge about the process of giving it up is available, here or elsewhere. You don't have to go it alone when you make up your mind.