I understand completely. I was away this weekend at a family wedding. Was so fun but it felt like something was missing... him... AND... walking on eggshells if he drank too much. When I thought of it that way, I was able to have clear thoughts and I know I am on the correct path... without him. I miss the friendship but not the bad times. It will fade with time and maybe none day I will meet someone who deserves me. You will too, chin up and carry on... it really is the only way