ok it was snarky and did hurt my feelings-- I guess for me it does feel like an accomplishment to be able to use in moderation- that was actually a goal I never htought I could do- it does not intend to be bragging- but more likke I do actually feel proud of myslef that where before I could only do all day every day now I can literally do once every two weeks. So I was proud of that. I didnt realize that it would be harmful to others seeking recovery- I still dont quite get why it would be? But I can abstain from posting if it is harmful for others to hear of my experience- I didnt intend to be triggering to anyone- was just sharing my personal experience. This forum has been extremely helpful to me over the years-- but I guess I didnt really understand that my moderate use would be harmful to anyone else's recovery so I guess I will stop posting unless I am 100% sober? Is that what you guys want me to do?