Please, please don't throw it in the garbage. I almost don't feel qualified to advise since I'm only on Day 8 but what I do know is that I spent forever throwing away my good intentions (to not drink) often on the basis of 'what the hell' and always, always regretting it next day. And Saturday was definitely a trigger day for me. You are not an outcast and everyone does not dislike you. One thing I know absolutely is that if you drink, chances are you will end up feeling the usual remorse, dread and self-loathing. It is not worth it. You and all of us are worth more than that.