1 week sober today.
Today is my 1st week sober. Yesterday, I had almost been in a car wreck because a woman just decided to come into my lane without notice (which would have sucked, as I just bought this 2019). I had to swerve slightly and slam on my brakes. Anyways, THAT was a huge trigger. I could almost see myself coming home, drinking and going off about it, drinking more, and ending up rolling that all up into a blowout with my other half.... but I didn't.
It's something I've discussed with my girl, I need to learn how to deal with up's & down's sober. I can no longer have a stressful day & use alcohol to cope (if you can call it that, alcohol always snowballed the effect of a stressful day.. atleast to me).
Sleep has been so-so. Some nights I awake and I have a feeling I've been grinding my teeth in my sleep, maybe anxiety. This past week I have been very jumpy as well. I have knocked things over, and dropped things. I have had times responding to a question and I start to stumble over words. I walk out of my door on a beautiful morning headed to work, and it's almost overwhelming in an uncomfortable way. Sobriety in itself has seemed intoxicating to me this week.
Anyways, just wanted to come and let you guys know that a week is in the books, with the journey forward still in front of me.