My family (mom, sister, brother-in-law, etc.) are all wine drinkers. I’m not going to drink, but I miss sitting around and drinking with them when we are all together. As everyone gets a nice wine buzz, I’m such a sober bore. I don’t laugh as much as I used to. I feel left out. I’m not as much fun (this isn’t in my head, it’s been confirmed). No one wants me to drink again (they can stop, after they go to bed I would always continued until I blacked out and passed out). I miss contributing to the fun. I really do. Again, I’m not going to drink. But I’m visit family for 2 weeks and it’s just not as fun anymore. I find myself going to bed at 8:30 instead of drinking and laughing with them until they used to go to bed at 10ish and I would keep going. I even liked zoning out in front of the tv with wine solo after they went to bed. I looked fwd to night. Now I just end the day. It’s strange.