Great to hear this lessgravity!
I have a wedding to go to in a few weeks. The first one in years. They were always the event to drink at for me. Always filled with people I don't know, so the desperation to grab a drink and build the confidence to have conversations was always there from the get go. I don't think I have ever been sober at a wedding.
The good thing is that this one will have a number of my husband's colleagues there and I've managed to socialize with them a few times in the past year without alcohol. I'm now used to the idea that I don't need drink in order to converse with them or enjoy myself. I used to believe the only reason any of them (or any one for that matter) spoke to me was because I was more fun and interesting when drunk, but a year of sobriety has taught me how to be around people in a normal state again.