Thanks everyone for the support.
It means alot to me. The voice of my addiction has really put all its energy and effort into this latest mental attack. Its a war inside my head, all day long its been:
* You are a loser
* You are a dummie
* You cant do anything right
* You have screwed up everything good inside your life
* Your best years are behind you, only pain and suffering await you now
* You are ugly, nobody likes you
* Youre a creep and a wierdo
* Your too stupid to make a decent salary or learn a new trade
* Nobody cares if you live or die. You are irrelevant
* The world will be a better place after you are gone
* You are a disgrace to the family name
And so forth......All day long just negativity x1000