I just loos tap OST! Thanks for your support iv had a quiet day managed to eat drink and relaxed watching tv. Anxiety still bad but I know that will get easier next few days. I just can’t believe I did it again after all thecworry and regret I felt for months and the fear. Then I proceeded to drink then do all the things that are causing nagativity for me such as texting ex spending money and just being a nightmare. I did text my ex sorry yesterday morning and he replied ok no problem but it’s strange cos he doesn’t really speak to me and has a family etc. He works the 12 step programme so maybe he’s dealing with me that way. I am worried he will go to court though or to services