I'm so sorry you're feeling the way you do Eve, I understand entirely, I've been there. The good thing is that you don't have to feel that way again. Just don't drink today.
Just focus on staying sober today, be kind to yourself, drink lots of water to re-hydrate, eat as well as you can, rest and listen to what your body is telling you.
At first staying sober isn't easy but it does get better with each passing day.
Stick close to S.R and keep posting, we're all here for you xx