I think you may be right brick maybe I should go back to my gp but iv been there over and over in the past in meds off etc that I dread going again and as I want to apply for financial things in the near future I don’t want my nes record to look bad. But I think I have more going on than just the drink as iv not drank in a while and before that a while so I was not a long time daily drinker iv mostly been sober for a long time. I just feel pretty down and hopeless like overwhelmed and just not happy at all I guess