Thabks for your words. Yes it does feel like bad days then a good day etc at the moment. Got a lot going on and feeling very isolated because of my situation just me and the children. But I’m gona wait for it to pass and try to remember that feelings and situations change in time as long as I stay sober. Might be some depression and anxiety also as I no longer take any meds for this as in the past I felt anti depressants made me want to drink. Some days life feels like a struggle the routine and same thing day in day out. Not moaning just finding life on life’s terms a bit hard. Years ago I would have drank come up with some terrible plans and end up totally making a mess of my life. At least now I’m not creating unmanagabilty drama or chaos so got to be greatful.