Welcome back, eve! Hope things clear up a bit and you can share some more with us. I've had MANY morning like the one you're describing, but this is my first serious attempt to quit for good and while using Sober Recovery forums, and for me it's been a game-changer. There is a great energy and spirit among the regulars I keep running in to and I imagine they'll have a lot to share with you and want you to share with them. Day 9 for me so far, so I sure don't mean to claim I "got this", but I feel like SR is a very useable tool that I just never used before, and I can feel a difference in the right direction.
Peace, and good luck!