I get that he committed suicide because of the dementia symptoms. He did explain how he picked up after 20 years, it was one little bottle of Jack Daniels then within a week he was hiding bottles. I’m thinking the dementia could have been caused by his addiction. It all hits home with me, how bad will my mom get? What will I watch her go through? Will I pick up a drink years from now and be back in hell? Will my depression and anxiety always hold me back from happiness? Is alcoholism a symptom of my anxiety? I’m overwhelmed right now. Breathe, one day at a time