Thank you to you all, I'm so grateful for your responses.
I've not had a drink. I've googled meetings and there's one on at 7pm about an hours drive so going to shower then battle through till 6 when I have to drive over there. At least then by the time I've driven home I can go to bed and will be sober.
Not telling my husband as he won't want me taking my car to that part of the city. And I know it's wrong but I am going to not tell him where I'm going and just go out
Sorry for the offload everyone