Is sleep an option for you?
When I did (albeit booze-related) anxiety and depression, I just tried everything to get to sleep. Mostly I put on some documentary or podcast from youtube where the person speaking had a calming voice - like a really deep voice etc (or just think Morgan Freeman).
When I got to sleep, I was better for a time. Sleep pushes the 'hour and minute hands' of the brain forward. That's how we overcome difficult things and also, basically, how we forget how horrible our binges were etc.
You might want to try that. Very simple breathing meditation is also an option.
Hope you feel better, friend.