I have spent some time re-reading over this thread, and after that visualising the coming weekend, and just how valuable sober socialising could really be.

I can see how, if I am sober and not talking to those people over there, its probably because I don’t want to. I can see myself interacting with slightly intoxicated people, because I can often bounce of their energy, and likewise.

I can see myself returning home, girl in arm, feeling glad I made it. On planet Earth, not some risky dream castle poised to fall off the edge of horizon Rick.

I can kind of believe it now. At least, a little more. It helps to keep it to this weekend. “Just try it”. I can’t know unless I do. And if its hard, hard things get easier as you expose to them. But not if you numb yourself first.

No doubt the snake will rear its head again before the week is up. I think posting helped.