Hi Trismegistus - welcome
My advice is not to pull that cork - drinking will only make that anxiwety and fear worse and worse.
I'd try and focus on the things you know versus the things you fear - you'e married to a result, you've been there 10 years.
I can't say for sure without knowing more about your situation but I'd reckon you'd be as safe as any other man in the street,
Volunteering did me the world of good. when I quit drinking.
I couldn't work due to health issues but I could still give back to my community and find a little purpose in my day to day life.
Support helps too and you'll find a lot of that here
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