Situational awareness and my ego
Hi i came here for some advice, im 35 and i drink to disable my ego and forget that my life is without hope or dreams and the feeling of being disabled by my situation. I lose the selflessness and non ego driven understanding part of me when im sober. Heres my situation i moved to another country to be with the woman i love and she fell pregnant. I have two great kids now and i love them and my wife with every fiber of my being. But i am not a resident here i cant work cant drive live in fear of being sent home to the u.k and banned from seeing my kids.so i drink to forget all that i cant do and quell the boredom and self pity my ego and overthinking places upon me... But its killing me, i know i have ulcers my heartburn and stomach pain have been consistent for about 8 of the 10 years ive been here and my drinking tolerance goes up. Any words of advice before i pull the cork and settle into my fate?