Thanks for your responses. I absolutely love the wisdom that is shared here.
I prayed alot tonight. I don't ever want to go back to that dark hole I was in before and just one drink will take me back there. Hearing those relapse stories is a stark reminder of what is waiting for me if I pick up a drink. I will pray to remain willing and teachable. Throw myself into my recovery. Keep working the steps. It helps that I love it. I adore the Big Book and the steps. They are changing me and my whole outlook on life. I love church. And I can go into meetings and share what is working for me in order to stay sober and maybe that might just help one person.
So funny, I have a whole shelf and then some of recovery books that I bought thought my drinking "career".. I never knew Ithere was only one I needed. But now I do know. Thank God 🙏
Ahhhh the fear has gone.
Thank you 🙏♥️