Originally Posted by
LaceyDallas 
At the the end of the day, I really don't care that much about my own life.
I felt that way 14 years ago Lacey, but as my time in recovery went on I began to value myself again and it didn't take too long to see that I really never had to drink again to feel right, I could move on without my wife and meet someone else rather than feeling like she had a sick, twisted grip on me, and I could be a father, husband, and friend to people who wanted me in their lives. It's pretty freeing to break away from the insanity and to stop repeating our same behavior and expecting a different result.
Your life is of value, you can stop choosing the devil, and it all begins with making a choice.