I cannot say that I understand anything about eating disorders, Lacey, but don't you think that your thinking is distorted right now?
What do you mean you have ten more months of this to deal with now? Why are you putting yourself in a place where you are feeding your eating disorder instead of managing your health in a better way? What would it mean to you if you did just drop this couple of people from your life and your interest to avoid this temptation to self-harm?
I cannot say I agree that you should be choosing the devil you know over something else. I did that for 35 years of drinking until it completely broke me in every way. Finding yourself in the same place after trying to gain his attention or to put yourself in a place of self-image in the wake of destructive behavior doesn't make you anything but a victim to your illness.