Welcome Andrea,
Glad you found your way here to SR. It has been a HUGE help in keeping me from running to the liquor store anytime uncomfortable feelings come about.
I, too, have destroyed a many relationships due to my drinking. Best thing you can do for yourself is to not pick up a drink NO MATTER WHAT. It is not the solution, EVER. I'm 10 days sober and struggling in my relationship bc we are both sober and don't know how to interact in this new mind-state....again, uncomfortability. But I dare not drink. Alcohol is death for us both.
Continue with AA and stay connected with your peeps here on SR. 🙏 ❤