Thanks so much to everyone who responded to me. This has been a huge wake up call for me. It wasn’t actually child services I spoke to although that will be to come. It was the alcohol service who I go to who put in a safeguarding report.
After my sister died, I moved back in with my parents so we could all support my niece together. They have been doing the bulk of the caring during my benders but it’s not fair on them or my niece.
Now on day 2 and feeling very rough but I cannot afford to drink or my entire family will be destroyed. Hardly slept last night with anxiety and palpitations and when I did drift off I would wake up drenched in sweat.
Must ride through it as I have too much to prove now.
Thanks again. You’re all amazing